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Hi blog.

Salam, hari ni hari yang paling penat di dunia.

Hari ni hari perlantikan bods library. Walaupun dah lebih setengah tahun aku jalankan tugas, harini baru nak ada ceremony.

Alhamdulillah, rasa dihargai.

Bagi aku, tugas menjadi seorang ketua pengawas pss takde la susah, cuma kat part naik turun tingkat 4 library tu aku takleh tahan. *serious faktor fizikal aku membuatkan aku termengah mengah bila sampai atas tu*

Harini jugak, pertempuan di dalam kelas berlaku. Mungkin dimulakan dengan aku. Sebab dorang tak pernah nak discus elok elok since semua tak nak amik port. Argh. Nasib tak tarik tarik rambut tadi *padahal aku tengah tunggu perkara itu berlaku* Masalah ni bila semua takde kata sepakat and most of the guys bila nak bincang je they'll change the topic arghh *kalau lari dari masalah sampai bila bila tak selesai weh* . Oleh sebab itu lah, aku bangkitkan depan guru kelas kitaorg. And she cried instantly after heard that we re fighting coz of smallz thing. Awwww, cikgu janganlah nangis :((

Alhamdulillah,  benda settle, bincang elok elok cam ni dari mula kan bagus :)

Last thing yang membuatkan aku penat nak mati, ialah ubat aku *antibiotics*. Semalam aku ke hospital,  dan doctor kata kena naikkan dos aku. Which is from 100mg to 300mg and its from upper class daripada antibiotic aku yang dulu *which means stronger la* . Berjam jugak, coz we have to wait for doctor lain sign my prescription baru aku boleh amik ubat tu. Sampai ke dispensi ubat, pegawai farmasi tu buat hal konon ubat aku tu takde kat situ, and they ask use to buy on own outside which is so expensive *im a goverment independent so semua ubat free* . Dr aku dah memang standby number dia, and said kalau dorang buat hal just call him. Sooooo, i called him immediately and said to him that the pharmacist kata my ubat is not there. And he said its not possible takde kat situ, so he asked me to give the phone to the pharmacist there. Ha aku pun bagi la kat india ni, lepastu dia macam bengang pulak dgn aku arghh lepastu buat2 tak faham *aku dah nak lempang muka dia dah* . So , the other pegawai pharmacist kat situ amik telefon gue, and cakap with my doctor.

Then, after awhile they were on the phone, pegawai tu, suruh tunggu jap. LMAO UBAT TU ADA JE SEBENARNYA, ASAL TAKNAK BAGI? PADAHAL AKU DAH DAPAT DUA SIGNATURE FROM THE SPECIALIST UNTUK PRESCRIBE KAN UBAT TU FOR ME.
I was laughing at the pegawai and said "Tadi taknak bagi rupanya ada je?" sambil angkat my bahu and tangan plus jeling . So you guys wanna know how strong is my ubat , until it can turn my urine to fucking orange like you know freaking ORANGEREDISH . Walaupun cam ew, i wanna keep it here. The first time i peed after i took the meds, i was screaming looking at my urine since my doc already aware me to check my urine lmaooo. The next side effect is heartburn. Woi bukan macam panas hati ni, tahu tak your heart tu rasa macam kena tekan and like pedih sumpah tak boleh bernafas and sakit . The other side effects *i read on google side effect of my meds banyak gila* , alhamdulillah aku tak merasainya dan aku taknak langsung rasa dah.

Ohh, i havent tell you the part where my doctor said if this freaking 300mg wont work, i gotta take this freaking daily dose injection that will cost me almost RM48K....... My mom and i was speechless at tht time, eventho gvrmnt inde but still the price is so......  Ya Allah tuhan ku , peliharalah aku, daripada sampai ke stage itu *sekarang aku stage 2*

Apa yang menakutkan aku ialah, ada yang suffer this diseases sampai 6/8 tahun....... i dont want that....... Kalau dua antibiotic yang 300mg aku tengah ambil ni masih tak cukup, aku tak tahu dah nak buat apa.

Since the dr said i can call him anytime if ada side effect yang teruk, i almost call him sebab bapak sakit heartburn.

The least you guys can do now is pray for my health and give some kind words to build up my strength to go through this.

Mental sumpah kena kuat.

Kalau tak aku dah lama give, tak terkira dah berapa kali aku ulang alik hospital tu.

Aku akan anggap ini ujian dari Tuhan untuk menjadikan aku seorang yang lebih kuat.

Kalau Tuhan tahu aku tak kuat, Dia takkan beri ujian kepada aku.

Tolong doakan aku ya

Sekian salam mintak simpati 1 Malaysia ,
Sofia Nasaruddin